Thursday, May 31, 2012

light meets the dark

I was driving from the library after our weekly story time.  The kids were flipping through their new finds in the back seat and we were on our way to the commissary.  It was a busy morning.  This song came on the radio.  I knew from the beat that I had heard it many times before and had probably mindlessly even sung along to the chorus a time or two.  Tears started to fall.  It wasn't but a couple lines in and I knew God was speaking to me through the airwaves. 

I feel strongly that this most recent personal trial has been a very necessary part of connecting deeper with all parties involved.  It has been about making myself vulnerable enough (ie. letting down my walls) to let people in.  It amazes me that I keep holding on to self.  God continues to find dark corners of my heart that he wants to expose to the light.  This is where the healing begins.  So please rejoice with me that God is doing big things in my life.  He continues to change me and mold me.  Something tells me he still has more to do.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

the full vs. new moon

I continue to be awed by God's amazing creation of the moon.  We look up and notice it more when it is bright and full but somehow even if we don't see it we know of it's silent presence.  As an adult I understand that the moon doesn't actually change shape.  
Depending on where the moon is in relation to the earth, we see the (sometimes small) part of the sphere that is reflecting the sun which is God's light source.  Did you know that we see the full circle of the moon when it is in fact behind the earth?  While it faces the sun from back there, the light reflects directly down into our night sky.  When the moon has orbited between the sun and earth, the inhabitants of this planet don't see the light at all.  Even though the moon is now closer to the sun it essentially has it's back to the source of light.  In an attempt to show the earth who God is, the people end up seeing nothing at all (the new moon) in the dark night sky.

Oh Lord help me to take a back seat to your marvelous powerful light.  Let my life only fully reflect--not waxing and waning--who you are at all times.